On Sunday I spent the afternoon with some friends. We drove around a bit which never ceases to annoy me. Why waste gas when you've got two working legs and two steady feet? Anyway, I still got to enjoy myself for the most part once I convinced them to pull over at the park. Both of them were afraid of a couple black guys under the pavilion which, given living in a small, Conservative area where races are divided into those who tan and those who burn, I wasn't all that surprised. I just don't get what's to be afraid of, really. It makes little sense to me, but I digress. It's really not worth delving into.
Still, we managed to enjoy the much needed sunshine by playing on the swings, kicking around a soccer ball, and laying in the baseball field's grass. My friends are used to me bring up strange things, but even they thought I was plain out weird when I brought this up.
While laying beneath that beautifully open sky, I realized that the band of blue wraps around the globe connecting all peoples, not only the one's with Internet access. If only someone could hear my voice on the wind, then maybe someone out there would understand, and I had to wonder some more. There's so much of the world that I have yet to see, but no one seems to think about the big picture. Nearly every senior at my high school is set on a course in the pursuit of money. A higher education isn't about the knowledge one gains. It's about the desire to find a high paying job with a cute secretary, nurse, etc. in order to get the biggest house, nicest car, and biggest prestige.
Personally? I have no interest in money in that sense. I work to live, not live to work. My parents have the mainstream ideas, and so this whole going to a four-year art college seems like a waste to them. There's nothing worse than false support. Still, under that sky, I realized how even my dreams are so faint in the concept of the cosmos. I want to meet the people outside myself and the place I've called home since birth without losing the connections I've made.
I have a new desire to rise above my own motives and consider the world at large.
~ Peace and Love
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